Barely There. . .

Im on the recumbent bike and I'm ready to go already! As you can see from the picture I'm only 12 minutes into my hour long session. This is pure madness! No i'll tell you whats madness: resting my elbows on the fat pockets that have accumulated on my waist. Let that be one reason why i stop complaining with my chocolate devouring, pretzel chomping, carb loving, cake jonesin' , food luvin self.

Im not so diluted to think that i can get close to resembling my old self without good nutrition, adequate cardio and strength training. Well if making myself go to the gym when i feel yucky from the craziness I ate then let the madness continue.

Black Bean Pasta Without the Workout

Black Bean Pasta

I prepared this meal shortly before I was to meet with the trainer tonight at the gym.  Three ingredients (pasta, low sodium black beans and tomato/basil pasta sauce) that blended to make an awesome meal prior to the anticipated die-hard kickboxing workout.  See, today was to be just for kicks (meaning front, side and roundhouse) because my chest has been hurting so jabs, uppercuts and crosses were out of the question.  However my workout was not to be today.  I had a beef with some things that transpired between me and the trainer.  I addressed them and doing so ate up my session.  I hope the air is clear between he and I and I look forward to my next session.  By the way he was cool enough to null that washed session and allow me another opportunity to use it in the coming week.  I appreciate that.  For the record he apologized for some things I felt were out of line.

Although I am a different person now then I was even two to three months ago I still let things fester while trying to work them out and unfortunately when "payday" comes sometimes my communication can be straight to the point.  I don't want to hurt any one's feelings but when it involves customer service and communication I get beside myself.  It's not different in any other environment other than my workplace.

In the end I still love fitness.  I love the gym.  I love working out and it doesn't hurt when I see the yumminess of a nice fit guy.  In reality though I can't mix my fitness with a man.  It just doesn't work.  

 . . . Back to the reason why I am writing this blog . . . I prepared this pasta dish and didn't get to use its energy for my workout so I am somewhat bummed however I have another opportunity tomorrow morning to workout.  I can't wait.  Working out is the highlight of my life right now and if I had a man he would be a close second.  LOL

I'm not perfect

You know, sometimes when talking to people I get the impression they think I do things right. Well I don't.  I don't eat healthy all the time and I certainly don't attend every single workout 100%.  Sometimes I can't when my knee, traps or chest are hurting.  But everyday He wakes me up is another day for me to try again.

I was talking with a co-worker today and she commented that I eat healthy and she doesn't. After we finished our chat I felt like maybe I came off like a little miss goodie-two-shoes or that I was looking down my nose at her.  I don't ever want her or anyone to think that I judge what they eat or whether they work out.  I do want to inspire people through communication so I am always willing to talk about food and fitness.  I'm not the healthiest bird on the wire.  I will never tell anyone they are going to get fat if they eat a certain food or dessert.  That is not my place.  Chances are that person is already aware of the choices they make so far be it from me to say something like that.  It doesn't sound nice and I don't want to hurt the feelings of others.  Besides I wouldn't want to be a hypocrite. 

What's not so new but was a year ago is the that feeling of wanting to work out but wanting to eat those wonderful foods that make me want to work out in the first place.  I know what it's like to realize that the lifestyle you are living does not support working out regularly and making healthy food choices.  I used to preach "lifestyle changes" to my clients when I was a trainer.  I didn't understand why they couldn't make a choice to do what they needed to live longer.  Well now I know.  I used to live with someone who didn't workout and he didn't eat healthy most of the time.  It wasn't his fault that I gained weight but I became more relaxed in my setting.  Sometimes he only ate two times a day.   While I was having my fourth meal/snack of the day he was having his second meal.   I used to wonder what it would be like to have someone in my life that cared about fitness and trying to live a healthy life as I was.  With the way things are going I may never know that life.  As for the current date I have shaped my life around fitness and I am happy I did.

So glad I went to the gym 2x today!!

 

 

I went to the gym this morning and this evening. The gym smelled like funky fafa (that's armpit in the Chamorro culture) this evening! While working out I realized that I had my pants on backwards! I kept wondering why by butt didn't feel 100% covered and why there was extra material around the abdominal area. I couldn't understand it. Had my butt gotten bigger? No it hasn't (let me tell it!).  Although tired I was excited to go to the gym this evening.Ha Ha Ha. So discovering that my pants were on wrong didn't matter because I had a workout to tend to. I got a really good bicep workout in tonight. I also practiced my kickboxing and took care of the calves . . . life is good.

Pretty good week

I've been good this week about going to the gym at least once a day.  However I did miss one work out because I just didn't feel good.  I've been feeling like I'm coming down with something then the next day I'm fine.  I think my body is trying to tell me to take a day of rest.  Rest would be great if I didn't have 20 pounds to lose.  Eight of those pounds I would like to loose by my birthday next month.

During my training session I did some kickboxing.  I gotta' get those combos down.  Actually the roundhouse is my nemeses.  I have never been able to do that while pivoting on my left foot.  When I am on the ball of my foot I become off balance.  I'm determined to get this right and not quit on myself.

Two Chances Lost

I was supposed to work out on Sunday as as I prepared my gym bag I began to feel ill.  So I spent the whole day in bed.  My Monday workout was awesome!  I worked back and triceps with 40 minutes of cardio.  I can do this!  I know I can do this!  I just have to stay focused.

Staying focused was my mindset until I woke up late this morning.  Sadly I missed my workout because my alarm didn't go off until 5am.  That makes two chances to get fit that I lost out on! To make matters worse I overindulged in chocolate.  It's so early in my quest to become that fit person I once knew myself to be for me to become sidetracked by chocolate.

Come rain, shine or snow I am working out tonight.  I missed cycling this morning so I am going to cycle tonight for one hour and possibly more if I can keep up. 

The highlight of my day despite missing my workout was touring the fitness center very close to where I work.  It's got a speed bag!  How great is that?  That was a rhetorical question because without a doubt it is a great thing.   I'm so excited! 

Fitnesslyfe begins today!

In light of my shameful 10 minute attempt to get through a kickboxing assessment yesterday I decided to go to the gym today and give it my best shot.  But before I could leave for the gym I had to record my weight and body fat %.

Weight 141lbs
Body Fat 28%

Not very good numbers, I should say, but not the worst. (check out my video)

Today my workout consisted of an hour of indoor cycling.  I had a hard time breathing but did my best. I later worked deltoids (anterior, middle and posterior) and abs.  Overall it was a good workout.  Tomorrow is kickboxing drills to help me prepare for what is to come when I see my trainer next week.  Ugh!  I hope I make it through without puking my oats and egg whites! 

Gym Rat

I'm going to eat, wait 30-minutes and then head to the gym.  I had a hard time yesterday while getting my but kicked during the kickboxing assessment.  But I'm not going to give up.  This morning while laying in the cozy comfort of my bed all I could think  about was this new challenge to loose weight, get fit and to excel at kickboxing.  I jumped out of bed and stormed into my spare bedroom and immediately began tearing through the boxes of books I had not yet unpacked.  I found such titles as Sports Power, Sports Nutrition Guidebook, Sports Stretching and Facilitated Stretching.  This is one of the many moments I realized that I love a challenge.

The thoughts I had after retrieving the books was that "I can do this".  I am capable of doing anything and not letting my age come between me and the gym or between me and fitness.  What can I say?  I'm a professed gym rat who would rather be single so I could focus all my time on fitness and wellness.

It's time to say goodbye to the mini muffin top and hello to sexy!