New journey

Had a pretty hard workout yesterday, legs and back. I no longer have to workout twice a day because I decided not to eat the things that cause me to gain weight or better yet, body fat.

I started eating clean 8 days ago. Everything is cooked and eaten fresh. It takes some prep but it's worth it. I was 139 at start and i am now 137 as of yesterday. I ate two small Cadbury chocolate eggs on day 5 of this journey and immediately didn't feel well. I had a headache and my stomach was upset. I figured a little chocolate wouldn't hurt. Man was I wrong! I am allowed to have a treat meal but i gotta' use that treat meal wisely! I buy a lot of fresh veggies and fruits. As far as meat, I will only eat chicken, turkey and fish. It's a good thing that I can cook or I would be in trouble. I've also given up refined sugars and processed grains. I have especially given up alcohol. Now this isn't new considering I gave up alcohol when I moved to PA. Six months into it I traveled back to SD and had a drink with my friends. Although I didn't over do it i still felt guilty that it would hurt my weight loss. Now I'm back to my plan. 

My workouts trump almost everything except my family and job.  I prefer not to engage in any personal commitments (i.e. relationships). I don't ever want to have to choose between my partner and the gym. I will always choose the gym. My family understands why I work out but others usually don't. My best friend @realresults411 understands me and that's why we are friends to this day. Actually I think I have one or two other friends that understand but we don't talk often so I'm sure it doesn't matter one way or the other.

I guess this is just a continuation of the new journey I started months ago only now I am more focused.  I miss being able to fit into my clothes and I miss having a round firm butt!  I see women and men on Instagram who are fit and fab and I wonder what ever happened to me.  I'm not saying I want to be just like them but I long for that die hard dedication I once had.  Grant it my life was totally different back then.  I can have that again I just have to get on my grind.