All Eyes On Me

Im on the treadmill right now listening to Pandora, my new favorite app by the way. All Eyez On Me has got me feeling good. Visions of me crip walking replay in my head over And over! Its hilarious!

Eavesdropping

Okay! So I eavesdrop! Sometimes I cant help it. The other day I heard a guy at the gym admitting to another guy that he cant possibly come to the gym in the mornings without showering first. Finally someone that does the same thing. My ex couldn't understand why I did it. Even after explaining that sweat and unwashed skin tend to smell worse than if someone had washed up first he still didn't get it. I also heard the same guy saying it helps warm his muscles up.

Today I overheard a guy talking about his "case" as in court case. Maybe he doesn't care who knows that he has to go to court. He talked really loud and occasionally using explicative words. To be honest he didn't do much working out.

I should probably mind my own bees wax. Lol. In retrospect some of my conversations with the regular gym goers probably should have been kept to myself.

Great Workout

This morning I have had a great workout.  I worked Back and Biceps and finished up with abs and 40 minutes of cardio.  Sometimes I wonder how long I can go on like this.  Am I going to have to work out twice a day really hard for the rest of my life?  Probably so if I continue to eat cake and peanut butter M&M's.  I do understand that if I am going to eat these things that they must be consumed in moderation.  I get that.  Maybe this will all subside when I no longer care what size fat rolls I have.

On another note when I go to the gym I sometimes get a sneak peek at this guy who is always there for one reason or another.  I try not to oogle at him but dang his body just won't quit.  He has shoulder's to die for and a nice tight backside.  I wonder if he is going to compete this summer?  It's a good thing I have morals because if I didn't I would be all over that!  One of these days I will get up the courage to ask him out.  However first I gotta get myself together and by "myself" I mean I gotta get my body right and tight!

Cake Please!

I can't believe that I only lost 1% body fat and my BMI went up!  I was flabbergasted but didn't know what to say for myself.  Actually I know just what to say.  I ate like and uncontrolled champ!  I ate like I didn't know any better.  I ate like my first, middle and last name was "Cake Please".  I ate like I was never going to be given the chance to eat again.  By now you get the picture.  Need I say more?

Barely There. . .

Im on the recumbent bike and I'm ready to go already! As you can see from the picture I'm only 12 minutes into my hour long session. This is pure madness! No i'll tell you whats madness: resting my elbows on the fat pockets that have accumulated on my waist. Let that be one reason why i stop complaining with my chocolate devouring, pretzel chomping, carb loving, cake jonesin' , food luvin self.

Im not so diluted to think that i can get close to resembling my old self without good nutrition, adequate cardio and strength training. Well if making myself go to the gym when i feel yucky from the craziness I ate then let the madness continue.

Black Bean Pasta Without the Workout

Black Bean Pasta

I prepared this meal shortly before I was to meet with the trainer tonight at the gym.  Three ingredients (pasta, low sodium black beans and tomato/basil pasta sauce) that blended to make an awesome meal prior to the anticipated die-hard kickboxing workout.  See, today was to be just for kicks (meaning front, side and roundhouse) because my chest has been hurting so jabs, uppercuts and crosses were out of the question.  However my workout was not to be today.  I had a beef with some things that transpired between me and the trainer.  I addressed them and doing so ate up my session.  I hope the air is clear between he and I and I look forward to my next session.  By the way he was cool enough to null that washed session and allow me another opportunity to use it in the coming week.  I appreciate that.  For the record he apologized for some things I felt were out of line.

Although I am a different person now then I was even two to three months ago I still let things fester while trying to work them out and unfortunately when "payday" comes sometimes my communication can be straight to the point.  I don't want to hurt any one's feelings but when it involves customer service and communication I get beside myself.  It's not different in any other environment other than my workplace.

In the end I still love fitness.  I love the gym.  I love working out and it doesn't hurt when I see the yumminess of a nice fit guy.  In reality though I can't mix my fitness with a man.  It just doesn't work.  

 . . . Back to the reason why I am writing this blog . . . I prepared this pasta dish and didn't get to use its energy for my workout so I am somewhat bummed however I have another opportunity tomorrow morning to workout.  I can't wait.  Working out is the highlight of my life right now and if I had a man he would be a close second.  LOL

I'm not perfect

You know, sometimes when talking to people I get the impression they think I do things right. Well I don't.  I don't eat healthy all the time and I certainly don't attend every single workout 100%.  Sometimes I can't when my knee, traps or chest are hurting.  But everyday He wakes me up is another day for me to try again.

I was talking with a co-worker today and she commented that I eat healthy and she doesn't. After we finished our chat I felt like maybe I came off like a little miss goodie-two-shoes or that I was looking down my nose at her.  I don't ever want her or anyone to think that I judge what they eat or whether they work out.  I do want to inspire people through communication so I am always willing to talk about food and fitness.  I'm not the healthiest bird on the wire.  I will never tell anyone they are going to get fat if they eat a certain food or dessert.  That is not my place.  Chances are that person is already aware of the choices they make so far be it from me to say something like that.  It doesn't sound nice and I don't want to hurt the feelings of others.  Besides I wouldn't want to be a hypocrite. 

What's not so new but was a year ago is the that feeling of wanting to work out but wanting to eat those wonderful foods that make me want to work out in the first place.  I know what it's like to realize that the lifestyle you are living does not support working out regularly and making healthy food choices.  I used to preach "lifestyle changes" to my clients when I was a trainer.  I didn't understand why they couldn't make a choice to do what they needed to live longer.  Well now I know.  I used to live with someone who didn't workout and he didn't eat healthy most of the time.  It wasn't his fault that I gained weight but I became more relaxed in my setting.  Sometimes he only ate two times a day.   While I was having my fourth meal/snack of the day he was having his second meal.   I used to wonder what it would be like to have someone in my life that cared about fitness and trying to live a healthy life as I was.  With the way things are going I may never know that life.  As for the current date I have shaped my life around fitness and I am happy I did.